I've really been neglecting this journal as of late... It's due to the workload, I keep telling myself, and I'll write more in it when school picks back up. We'll see how true that is; hopefully, you'll see a lot more of me in weeks to come.

Yesterday, I felt relaxed and agreeable and really part of a group for the first time in a while. Meredith called to tell me that there was a surprise party for James (which I'd heard about on Monday when Adam and Chad took me out to dinner) at the Lacerte house [which Adam told me has now been sold], and that I was invited. Really wonderful time; we sat and watched movies and shot pool and danced around and laughed, and it was really, really pleasant.

Chad says that he's accepted that I've grown up, now, and that he pretty much gave his blessing towards that last night. =p We sat and talked and felt old together, though I don't feel eighteen yet and I don't know when I will. I feel a bit frozen at sixteen, though I know for sure that I'm older in terms of my personality and development and everything else. Appearance-wise, I'm still frozen around fourteen, though I've filled out and grown upwards a bit. Still blonde; my hair's around shoulder-length now, and Emily Ciuba commented yesterday that it's getting long (I've been wearing it down all week; it's easy to put it up, but I'm just trying a change of pace.).

I'm going out to breakfast with Chad, Reade, and Adam at Cindi's Diner sometime soon; Adam's going to pick me up around 8:50. I promise, though, I'll write more here later. I really need to catch you all up on everything crazy and beautiful and creative and destructive going on in my life right now.

Much love,
CJ

Date:	2008-12-15 18:55
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	ecstatic
Music:	commercials

I'M INTO COLLEGE!!!

University of Chicago and Emerson! YES!



...That's all. ^_^ Got to talk to Casey today because she called me about it, and saw Chad, Yves, and Katie after school right after I found out and was quite emotional. Told lots of people, including Mme. Alexandre, and she and I talked about it-- She's thrilled. I am, too-- it's a load off my chest.

~fin


♥

Date:	2008-11-13 23:33
Subject:	PS.
Security:	Public
Mood:	contemplative
Music:	Seventeen ~ Harry CHapin

PS: I'm eighteen now.

I turned eighteen while sitting in a Statistics class; I glanced at the clock at 1:52 and it had happened, and I'm not sure how I feel yet.

But I think it's going to be okay, somehow. You'll see.

We all will, right?


Love,
CJ

"I can never read all the books I want; I can never be all the people I want and live all the lives I want. I can never train myself in all the skills I want. And why do I want? I want to live and feel all the shades, tones and variations of mental and physical experience possible in life. And I am horribly limited."

~ Sylvia Plath




Thoughts?

Date:	2008-09-19 19:27
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Security:	Public
Mood:	loved
Music:	not applicable

The Dream Keeper  

I would liken you
To a night without stars
Were it not for your eyes.
I would liken you
To a sleep without dreams
Were it not for your songs.